Journey of Mi[rna]

I’m so relieved now, the stalker has gone! God, I hope………….. I haven’t received any text messages from him since the last week of fasting.

Thank you GOD

Tonight, I promised to meet Yoan at Century Hotel, at 7 PM. She’s a Tae kwon do athlete from Jakarta, who had participated in 2000 and 2004 Olympic. Imagine that! She’s one of the kind. Century Hotel in Senayan is a place where national athletes are gathered and practice their routine for a big sport events. For example, now, they will attend the SEA Games in Manila. They will depart from Jakarta on November 24, 2005.

She asked me to come tonight because there would be no practice and we would have a free time. But I got her text message when I was on my way to the hotel. She said she and the team would practise at 8 PM.
I arrived, went to her room and talked for awhile. Then she offered me dinner at the athlete canteen. Hahaha, if there was no practice, we would go to Plaza Senayan and had our dinner there.

When I was eating, came Sinta Berliana Heru. She was an athlete from West Java, attended many international game events. Even after she got her baby in 2001, she still competed and won a gold medal! Now, she is assistant coach. I matched her during 1996 PON, she won the first place and I was on second.

So, we chit chat and did some catch up. Then we off to the practice hall. I met Voppy too, athlete from West Java. I haven’t heard about her quite long time. Now, she’s married and has a kid, and still competes! She is as same age as I am.

Really, I miss the spirit of  this whole thing I did once. The practice (although I hated it), the rushing of adrenaline, the sweat, the ass-kicking, and………..the feeling of winnning!

I had a thought just now. If I were asked to do it again now, I think I can do it. I’m mature already to handle this:

• Being away from home (I couldn’t stand being away from home when I was an athlete),
• Being responsible of what I have decided (instead of listen to my dad who kept telling me how to practice Taekwondo)
• Being in an un-healthy situation among the committee and team mate (you don’t know how stressfull I was), and
• Controlling my emotions.

It’s not that easy if I want to come back. First of all, how will I support myself financially as I may loose my job if I join the training? Second, I must get appropriate training, good instructor, and supporting environment. Since I have my blackbelt and experiences from participating some competition, I cannot join a dojang where the mates have skills below mine (I’m not being snob here).

Anyway, I’m allowed to have my dreams, right?

Good luck to Indonesia Taekwondo Team in Manila.
Especially to you Yoan: Make a final sweet victory. God bless U!

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Blast from the past: Here is a picture taken in 1997

Yoan is the one who’s on my right, Sinta is the one behind me, Voppy is sitting in the middle.

Who I want to meet: Kiki (Central Java), standing second from the left. I heard she’s married with a German guy and live in Germany now. We were quite close that time.

Sitting, R to L:
Yolandini (West Java) - married with 2 kids
Voppy (West Java) - married with 1 kid
Andy Cahyadi (Jakarta) - don’t know his news for a long time ago